Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Mi amor sin fin


Your love had me prisoner for so long. It chained my soul to what i thought was yours. It brought me to my knees and made me swallow my pride. It lifted me in its arms and made me soar. And then it clipped my wings mid-air and let me come crashing down. It stood on the side with its arms folded across its chest and impassively watched me writhe in pain lying bloodied on the dusty ground. And if that wasn't enough it came over and trampled all over me till I thought i would die.

And just when I thought i could not go on longer, just when i thought i would die, you released me. Shattered the desire that was my prison-guard. One that had held fast at my legs everytime i tried to run away from you. All that it took, was rage. Your rage. That is what set me free. It cut the ties. Stabbed my heart in the right places so all hope leaked right out of it. It could not, will not - ever succeed in removing your deep fingerprints from the poor battered heart, but at least it took away the little dream that i nursed like a dead baby that has no hope of ever opening its eyes and seeing the happy sunday morning sun and the butterflies.

I'm happy you made me so sad.

Thank you for your rage, and every unkind word you had to say. I deserved no lesser
Goodbye

18 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

did u actually love this guy?

December 20, 2006 at 4:08 PM  
Blogger Pixychik said...

Anon,

I shoulda written a disclaimer before the text i think...

Anyway, the point is that we do not always write about the realities of our lives. Sometimes we project, exaggerate, imagine, day-dream and spin fantastical yarn. And while most times its romantic dreams, but there are times when the dark side is so much more exciting. The morbid more enthralling than the candyfloss.

Sometimes its not about the writer but about the writing.

I'm fine.

December 20, 2006 at 5:31 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

hmmm.... prose and the disclaimer. like a tight slap and a balm. the magic of the balm lies in the tightness of the slap. drak is good but please note. the slap hurt a bit. a good bit. sigh.
BTW - i am not the anon who wrote "did u actually love this guy?". i am the anon who wrote - happy happy we shall be when we read your abc. not that it matters. but no poor soul must be confused to be talking to two anon's assuming them to be one. :)

December 21, 2006 at 6:43 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

i think this is a good name -daehkcid, instad of annonymous, or anon as you call it. pretty blase.
- ps- this is the abc anon talking.. hehehe. i love this silly juvenile thing of aliases. dont mind. i mean no harm.

December 21, 2006 at 6:47 AM  
Blogger goldfluke said...

you have never written this well before. it is v v v cool

dont care about the darkness or the light. encore...

December 21, 2006 at 1:09 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

cheap shot & below the belt.

readers (friends...creeps etc)with a little logic know who/what u are taking about.

the post is almost screaming a message (to whom?)... the excuse of a literary license is lame.

ever heard of a thing called washing dirty linen in public??

December 22, 2006 at 3:57 PM  
Blogger Pixychik said...

daehkcid,
thanks, but i have no clue what you meant. Try minding your business though, rather than evaluate the comments and the commenters on my blog.

All the anons of the world... ditto.
Thanks for your points of view, but seriously, u really expect me to take you seriously (or worse... actually try and distinguish between your different selves!? c'mon get real!!).

And if this message screams a message, maybe it meant to do that. Maybe the most logical of friends/ creeps don't really know anything after all about me.

Maybe i don't really give two hoots about your nameless, faceless, spineless point of view.

Thanks, but no thanks.

December 22, 2006 at 9:15 PM  
Blogger Pixychik said...

And thanks, Goldfluke

December 22, 2006 at 9:17 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

you never fail to impress me sistaa... :-*

December 23, 2006 at 8:44 PM  
Blogger Dipti Kharude said...

this for that anon dude/dudette who seems to have been kinda offended...dude/dudette exactly which chord of urs did this blog strike....talk about washing dirty linen in public..ur comment dus much the same or rather speaks volumes about how nosy u really are...

Hey tara..good going...:)))

December 24, 2006 at 7:45 AM  
Blogger justme said...

It is sad to see how badly this "comments' space is being used-
but - such it is and i guess shall remain-

December 24, 2006 at 8:49 AM  
Blogger lemontree said...

Taraa
Both the real and exaggerated bits in this are beautiful
And glad to see you bounce back in the comments. the spirit is intact.
Love and hugs
Lemon

December 24, 2006 at 10:24 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

i had no clue how bad being anon is and how one identity gets misused by another. dpt - i agree with u. taraa - you write well. Anon - let it be sistaa. me- i dunno, i like your blogs & writing period.

December 27, 2006 at 10:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

sistee... am sitting at the comp and this dickhead is going on commenting on your blog.... you seem to have a fan following!! the only thing is his comments fail to make any sense at all!!!
and wat a name... he seems to know himself too well...

December 27, 2006 at 10:07 AM  
Blogger Pixychik said...

shush sis.... he's not dickhead silly!!! he's HAEDKCID!!! tsk tsk!!

:)

December 27, 2006 at 10:56 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

bye sunshine. i am off. BTW, what make syou think i am a 'he'?

December 28, 2006 at 8:32 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

assumptions are a most often than not a figment of who or what we want the unknown to be.
He? She?
Anon has no gender, no caste, no nationality, Anon is a voice... the voice that you hear inside your head.
Maybe Anon is you. Maybe I am you (me)

Wish the readers a happy new year...

January 1, 2007 at 10:54 PM  
Blogger Pixychik said...

My new settings disallow 'anonymous' comments.

There.

January 2, 2007 at 11:48 AM  

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