Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Mi amor sin fin


Your love had me prisoner for so long. It chained my soul to what i thought was yours. It brought me to my knees and made me swallow my pride. It lifted me in its arms and made me soar. And then it clipped my wings mid-air and let me come crashing down. It stood on the side with its arms folded across its chest and impassively watched me writhe in pain lying bloodied on the dusty ground. And if that wasn't enough it came over and trampled all over me till I thought i would die.

And just when I thought i could not go on longer, just when i thought i would die, you released me. Shattered the desire that was my prison-guard. One that had held fast at my legs everytime i tried to run away from you. All that it took, was rage. Your rage. That is what set me free. It cut the ties. Stabbed my heart in the right places so all hope leaked right out of it. It could not, will not - ever succeed in removing your deep fingerprints from the poor battered heart, but at least it took away the little dream that i nursed like a dead baby that has no hope of ever opening its eyes and seeing the happy sunday morning sun and the butterflies.

I'm happy you made me so sad.

Thank you for your rage, and every unkind word you had to say. I deserved no lesser
Goodbye

Friday, December 08, 2006

My heart aches...

And no one quite seems to know how much...
Becuase i deceive
Becuase i don't tell
Becuase i don't want to
Because i cannot
Becuase i think i'm strong
Becuase i'm mightier than the plan
Because i am vain. And proud
Becuase i want to be happy
Because maybe i am happy
Because i believe this too will pass
Because i am still hoping
Because i don't want to lose faith
Because i am a fool